“I just happen to say things that won’t get me banned or ostracized” – you’re just a piece of shit, that’s all there is to say. Make whatever excuses you want for yourself, we know you’re good at that. “Why would a piece of shit be visiting this site though?” You want to use information you learn here to sustain the corrupt order you find yourself in. It’s possible to break from that, it’s a matter of believing in an order above the ones who determine the rules.
“How do I do that?”
I have various suggestions. The primary one I would suggest to get started is kill your immediate friend-group. Re-direct your focus toward ones who care about the eternal, living or in books.
Allow me to quote myself from this very post though, “You want to use information you learn here to sustain the corrupt order you find yourself in.”