“You can count on us, the chosen people, to turn your culture into a wasteland, just give us all your money in the meantime, and oops, your culture is an iredeemable wasteland, and we’ll be moving on to another country now. Only gullible subhumans who get what they deserve follow the kike nigger plot. Oh, that’s YOU.

I hate to put my good friend, Nick Land, on the spot, I just see as similar to Dugin in being one of the only people worth addressing in our time.

These two boomers, both born in the 60s, have many similarities.

“It’s blasphemous not to respect the old!” Treating you as an equal by not being sensitive toward you is blasphemous, right. These are two men who really value “people being sensitive toward them” obviously. What they prefer is non-idiots being critical toward them.

“So you think an Anglo and Russian are similar enough that they’re ‘one’ in a sense, in their generation?” Yes, this is obvious. The worthwhile minds of West and East Europe needed to talk many years ago.

Speaking of “Art”, a TV show with these two would be CHOICE, and alas it would never happen. E.T. levels of reality could be teased out of the confrontation between land and sea power (Land was ironically born with that name).

“You’re just trying to make two old farts feel better about not having anything brave to say.”

No comment.

Just as a younger associate, and friend of these two, I suggest Land divorcing the kike witch. Just my opinion! The kids would be better without them thinking you love an evil jewish… forget I said this, for your own mental health.

Dugin is too shackled to Putin. The Needs of his country cause his Active Intellect to falter. Just a mind-breath exercise- You are not shackled to all the vices of Russia. You can be a critical voice. “The war could be lost if I listen to you, I know better, I’m older.” Even if Russia wins, Russia was already conquered by bribery kike ideals many years ago.

Sloterdijk? Who cares about him, one of the many fake philosophers out there. At least you see the concrete problems a couple of them have above.

You can get lost on youtube. Extreme sports (wingsuits), different animals fighting each other (cheetah vs. crocodile), pranks (supernatural horror in real life), bunker designs (15 floors underground), how to create the perfect undetectable secret room in your house (not telling you how).

This site is a secret room for some, so I choose to go on.

We’ve been experimenting with the posthuman for some years now. If the Chinese are lucky they will learn some of these things in, I predict, a century or so. So we DO like to chill out in a bunker after the apocalypse has already happened. The real high-quality ones I saw guarantee luxury for up to 10 years and we’re approaching that time-limit now.

It isn’t the same, depending on what generation you’re from. Boomers were already dead when I found them. No one can tell me I didn’t take upon myself the Duty to resuscitate the older generations. Every generation is stamped in a certain way that they can’t change. Millennials I see as rather futural and able to break from the primitive boomer stamp. Though they have their limits too.

It isn’t Scrabble we’ve been playing down here in this bunker. It’s a possible code the Chinese could use to shave off some decades from the goal of “separation from humankind”.

I expect them to be using AI for this pursuit, and my only advice is that if a gook designs it, it’s only going to follow gookish pathways. No offense, I’m trying to help. Any synthetic intelligence designed by non-normans is going to lead to a nigger future.

Down in this bunker we try not to focus on any race, only the blinding light above. I think certain breeds of mutt are abnormally fit for that because we don’t have any allegiance to one specific people.

For instance, a quarter Irish, quarter Mexican, quarter Belarusian, quarter Kenyan couldn’t be trusted with this. Too many bioleninists rolled into one.

I guess it’s just a matter of trust at this point- I would feel ashamed if I philosophized with ressentiment as a motivation. I look at jews, appreciate their virtuous qualities, and in the final conclusion can’t help but see them as not trying to look at the blinding light because they’re too fixated on their own narrow perspective. Everything is about redeeming the exile and time spent in goyim nations, rather than what is good for the world overall.

It’s one of the many psyops to get past to believe that anyone critical of the jews only secretly wants to be one of them. I think that’s a projection on their own part. Most jews give me a feeling of disgust, and I think this is the “natural” way to see them. Just look at their faces, they look like inbreds. It matches with the Sabbatian ideology. Looks like a type of nigger, ACTS like a type of nigger.

I guess what brings me here is none of the standard fulfillments satisfied me. Let’s go over the basics- love, money, status, not necessarily in that order. Those don’t mean anything to me when there’s nothing higher involved. What’s higher than them is hidden.

Exposing rottenness at the top of society seems to be higher than any of those things, otherwise all of those things are subject to that rottenness. That couldn’t be real love, that couldn’t be real status, money seems like “funny money” in such a scenario, etc.

I concede I have similar features to Marxists, I just want them to pause for reflection for a moment and wonder if they are driven by ressentiment at all. Because if you are, that means you only want to replace the rottenness with another type of rottenness.

There is a blinding light above all of this, of which some characteristics can be discerned, and I think society should be modeled on that rather than be inspired by any of our petty humanly quarrels.

I wouldn’t be shocked if this were true

the impact of modernity on occultism, as will be seen, varied sensibly from country to country

There’s a new study on a member of Evola’s UR Group, someone named Reghini, who’s apparently a prolific esotericist himself. He was a mathematician who considered himself as part of an unbroken chain of initiates going back to Pythagoras.

Mr. Cromwell, what consequences of you and your little merchant friends does your nation now reap?

some aspects seen to be thoroughly compatible with modernity in an occult order in Great Britain, the Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn (est. 1888), for example, do not apply to a country like Italy and an esoteric Tradition like the one represented by Reghini’s writings.

“Cromwell and William of Orange weren’t BRIBED!” Pff.

Yeah and the Kings during the American and French revolutions weren’t in tremendous debt either.

Dæmons evoked in these countries are going to be Yahwehesque. This explains why occult orders in the US have so many prog features. They can’t free themselves from the material plane, they’re stuck in the “society dimension”.

Ooh so this is why I’m only learning of him recently

Reghini had given Christianity the definition of “semitic disease.” This caused Reghini to be completely forgotten until the turn of the century

It must be the excessive pasta-eating habits that keeps their vision clear

what would the progressive female magicians of the Golden Dawn have thought of Julius Evola’s article “Woman as a Thing”?

Hmm learning now that Evola had some stormy love affair with a feminist communist who he beat.

“My favorite part is how you beat me.” Too bad I’m not actually going to read it.

Contemporary occultists aren’t afraid of consorting with demons yet are afraid of making misogynistic jokes, tell me how you square that one. Charlatans who find a way to bolster the theological-political horizon using obscure jargon. “I walk around with my whole head up a jew’s ass, and my body as their mobile throne. I also wear black.”

Ooh I’m starting to understand now

this Roman traditio, in a way similar to Jewish Kabbalah, was said to have been handed down through the centuries from master to student, in order to keep alive a pagan initiatic center that would remain powerful and alive through two millennia of Christianity


His books on mountains, war, and eros are relevant here too.

How to weather the storm of cough cough “Platonism for the masses”.

The study in question seems to be saying the Anglosphere didn’t weather that storm as well.

Based on its epigraph I’d guess the author is sympathetic to this anti-modern occultism

If I moved to Italy how much of the Anglosphere would I take with me…

My point here is that politics shapes even esotericism, and thus that there is a deeper esotericism to politics.

If you didn’t fend off the revolutionary ideals then your nation’s minds will be limited in what they can see behind the scenes.

At the end of the day I probably would take Evola over Yeats, Crowley, Waite, etc. Over Éliphas Lévi, Blavatsky, Scholem (lol), Manly P. Hall, etc. Kind of a no-brainer. I still have to research Reghini more before I make a judgment on him.

Someone is goading me to get Italian dual-citizenship so I’m looking into what life might be like if I did that.

Wtf I love communism now. If you’re a citizen in the Schengen area you can spend 90 days every 6 months in any part of the Schengen area.

Like I said, my time on the various internets has convinced me that besides places like Russia and Iran, Italy and Poland seem to be the places where people breathe most freely. Maybe Italy can be a jumping stone for me after things cool down in Russia.

I’m looking for statistics on this

Hardly anyone regrets fascism in Italy

As far as I know, very few regret fascism. What they regret is being like other European countries… 

Honestly, the entwinement of both Civil War and WW2 mythology is one of the main problems of America. If there’s still WW2 mythology in Italy that’s better than our entwinement here.

Fewer than 30,000 kikes living in Italy at present. Maybe something about the place makes them feel “uneasy”, “nervous”. Many Italian Jews are Sephardis too, muhahaha!

There’s also a strain known as Italki that’s been there since Roman times. Man, imagine having that as the foundation of your worldview instead of George fucking Washington, so sick of that equalist retard. America was doomed from the beginning!

They have a political party that is named after Ezra Pound

They received over 300,000 votes in 2018. Is there a “pocket” of these people somewhere…

It looks like the general population is less extreme though

Then, the Five Star Movement is populist, critical of the EU, and antiestablishment. Badaboom badabing, in other words.

Let’s just get a handle on some of the basics. It’s about the square miles of Arizona.

It’s not as simple as saying “it has the climate of California”

The reason I’m able to get dual-citizenship by the way is because my grandma was already born by the time my great-grandpa became a naturalized US citizen (she was 3 years old).

I’m sick of being a guinea pig in the heart of the experiment of modernity. It’s clearly a failed experiment.

I’m just glad I have these 20 miles separating me from the New York border. New Yorkers are even more cursed.

I always appreciate this kind of map

I actually fried a steak using BOTH butter and olive oil recently and it turned out “next level”.

Isn’t this a weird coincidence, that the ones who seem to breathe most freely are…

It looks like it’s more complicated in Italy though

Probably would have a conversion sitting in one of these

I bet this woman lives somewhere around too

Not surprising

Probably’d be eugenic to find a woman near the Swiss border shhhhhh

I think this explains a lot about why Italy is a sort of “goldilock zone”

eighteenth-century Italy never had the sort of crisis experienced in France

It didn’t have the kind of revolutions that England or America experienced either.

After the collapse of Napoleon’s military fortunes in 1815, the Congress of Vienna freed Italy from French domination. In the Restoration, the three states established by the French were dissolved, French laws were systematically abolished, and the most of the traditional states were restored.

Ciao. French fucks.

Blehk, if I move there the French border will be my new New York border.

Ahhh glorious mountain WALL

We need to dig up mountain rubble on the Italian/Swiss border and pour it on the mountains separating Italy from France.

It reminds me of Florida too

Over 3 times the coastline of Florida though.

“The question is if they are terrible people.” On the spaghettinet they seem more prone to realtalk than Americans, and that’s what’s important to me. Not living in illooooosion.

Something else that’s important

People part of the revolutionary spirit tend to be aesthetically tasteless in more ways than one.

Who told you! Who told you what was going to happen in Iran! I’m not even “disillusioned” because of the protests there, due to the fact that I knew it was going to happen. And now Russia’s at war. So here we are at Italy. (Chink-ville isn’t an option for me.)

This is kind of interesting

I think being so rooted in such a long history has made them resistant to certain modern viruses.

Just the names of their cities alone sound more musical than US ones.

If I say ciao to the US mythos (which sounds like it will be akin to shedding chains) I wonder what darkness I will have to embrace of the Italian mythos, because I’m sure it’s not immaculate.

I expect them to be living in the past more than us. The pioneering spirit is dead here anyway, I just want to get away from the totalitarian processes of hyper-leveling.

Such a provocative title

I was contemplating the “quiet desperation” I noted earlier. Melancholy isn’t precise enough. “Moroseness” isn’t precise enough. Despair, that’s the word. And that is what this treatise is about.

Have to find the humor in the title

You can see my site as similar to a podcast. Oh you want me to have Kierkegaard on the pod? Alright, let’s give him an interview.

A lot of the time I envoke thinkers just to get what I perceive as their essence into my mind’s eye and use it as a muse.

I’ve said before that speaking of the subject of despair is often avoided because that itself causes despair. So I’m trudging on through this, because I feel it’s pretty common, and there needs to be an Understanding of it.

Then I remember I’m talking to niggers, and wonder what’s the point. That itself causes despair for me, maybe some are similar.

Sometimes I wonder if they even feel the elevated moods I do. For instance, depression is something you feel if you don’t feel high enough up in the status hierarchy, and that is distinct from despair, though they can be related. “I’m among the top clowns of clownworld” – oh yeah, I’m really looking for that in life. Having to live amongst people with that ideal is what causes me despair.

Filing it all under the category of “depression” is a mistake that only people who are confused about the nature of society make. It’s similar to how I’ve said that only philosophers understand happiness- the understanding of the opposite mood is also the case.

“Wait a second, what do you mean depression and status are linked?” Yeah, this is why people try to artificially ascend through wealth-accumulation. It’s a close enough replica for them. Dopamine drives Mammon too. In the eyes of the philosophers these people have no real status. Being economically-minded IS a real techne though, just one that doesn’t look very good if it’s not subordinate to something higher. Jews just want chimps to be in control, the “something higher” for them is control- they don’t care about what exactly is in control. These things do cause “one” despair. Probably not just me.

What causes despair is how so many are slaves to artificial status. They get their dopamine from “caving in”. I can’t imagine their happiness is real if those are the terms of service. This, I think, explains some of the pathologies of the ruling-caste. They know they’re still “in exile” and this agitates them and fills them with spite. Just join me in the garden with the philosophers, I bet that might make you feel more relaxed and at peace.

“I DO do that, I adjust certain philosophers to serve corporate liberal interests.” See, that’s where you’re wrong, kid.

What causes despair in higher beings? You’re starting to get a picture of it.

(The fact that I’m mostly talking to niggers right now who can–physiologically–only make excuses because they’re “niggers forever”.)

No one can say I’ve been unfair though, I’ve constantly relayed insights for the pure sake of helping jews, women, plebs, etc. even at the cost of my own personal well-being.

This is just the state of things. Slaves to “cultural recognition” that is a joke to anyone that can see it for what it is. I don’t know, if you were me would that cause YOU despair?

What’s a monkey do when you put a mirror in front of its face?

This is spicy

This is a perfect example of what I mean about the disciplines being fragmented- Husserl is as much a psychologist as he is a philosopher. (And the other way around for Freud.)

To begin, many prominent phenomenologists found the two to be irreconcilable because the unconscious by its nature cannot be “given”, because once it’s given it’s conscious.

Oh baby, this is perfect

If repression can be seen as the lingering presence of something which is like a hidden “foreign body” within us, then its phenomenological clarification must be based on an ability to account for the constitution of what is foreign.

“Putting two Jews together- this is your brilliant idea.” Just don’t think about their politics and it will be fine. (I invite Freud to sit on the couch to discuss his laughable article on antisemitism.)

This gets at something

the inner self-pluralization of the transcendental I

It’s like you have a babysitter in your head that pushes things into your unconscious for you. YET, at the same time, it is YOU. And despite the fact that it is you it is STILL a “foreign body”.

This isn’t supposed to be easy to understand. I mean that in a literal sense. The babysitter CAN’T be understood. It is an evolutionary coping-strategy for dealing with excessive truth.

It isn’t you… there’s something else in your head that isn’t you…

the anonymity of the functioning I

Not many are going to have any idea about this means because most I think lie to themselves about the fact that they lie to themselves. Yes you do, I almost guarantee that you do.

So if we can acknowledge that- the self has to “know” what it pushes into the unconscious. It just has to not know it well enough that it will be remembered (i.e. remain in consciousness). So the self “half-knows” something, holds it up at a distance like someone’s used tissue, then throws it away into the unconscious.

Wow, this is pretty deep

It is thus Freud’s concept of repression that provides him with the tool required to open a space prior to the Husserlian and Heideggerian horizons of discourse

So the latter two will say “The phenomena are present” and Freud will counter that they’re presupposing they’re not repressing anything.

So when I talk about the left’s denial about history and denial about “human” nature I mean to imply that the nanny-self in their head pinches the dry corner of the used tissue and throws it away with a light disgust. You can describe the precise details on how the gas chambers are half a fabrication and they will repress it with ease. You can show them documents of the names of who owned the slave ships and they will repress it with ease. The “theory of the unconscious” explains how our political order is maintained.

This is explained by the anonymity and self-pluralization of the I. You can show them a dozen primary sources on the ubiquity of sex-trafficking in the Pale and their “plural self” will bury it in the unconscious.

By the way, it wouldn’t be a stretch of the imagination to think of the “nanny self” as God. It isn’t “you” that hides it, it’s something that wants to protect you from the pain of truth. It’s a transcendental I that knows more than you.

This transcendental I is not perfect by any means. If you spend enough time with people who are stronger in the face of the truth your transcendental I can gradually be remolded.

This reminds me- when I was about 20 I got heavy into the study of self-deception and had a sort of psychic break. I might’ve mentioned this before. It’s not healthy to fight that “nanny” too severely. And yet here we are every day.

Let’s try an experiment. Think about something that makes you uncomfortable.

You probably felt the nanny there pushing something out of your thoughts.

That’s it, that was the experiment.

“It was about how I want to fuck a dog, how I DID fuck a dog once!” You are messed up. Seriously though, your nanny probably interferes with your political convictions.

Studying this kind of stuff though helps close the gap between your ordinary ego and your transcendental I. Namely, it helps you lie to yourself less. (Or so I tell myself [See what I mean?]).